Thoughts

Well, my babies are 3 months almost 3 1/2 months, and are doing great. They are sleeping so well, about 10 hours a night. They are only taking a few cat naps during the day, which is frustrating but i will take it if they sleep through the night. Halle and Miller are still getting along great and are best friends and always playing together (love them).

Honestly i am so happy with how everything in my life is going. I try to stay busy by going to my moms or my sisters, or just out so i am with another adult (just makes things easier) but if not, i can get through the day pretty well by myself. it can get crazy for sure, but i am learning to let a lot more things go. like when the kids make a huge puddle in the bathroom during bath time, i used to get so mad, now i just know it's going to happen when a 2 & 4 year old are in a bath tub playing. The other day they splashed so much water i opened my medicine cabinet thing and water spilled out, they got in trouble for that, but it was still funny. Playing in the mud outside, hey i did that as a kid and i don't remember  getting yelled at. making forts out of all the couch cushions, sure, as long as i can have one to sit on and feed a baby (which i am doing all day it seems, but its ok).

Harvey and Pepper are such little cuties and good babies. I am one lucky mama.

I am excited for Russ, he has his big Point to Point 80 mile mountain bike race next weekend. see here . He has been working all summer towards this race. He has been eating better, and has lost 15-20 pounds and with his new bike will be 30 lbs lighter then last year. It took him 12 hours last year and was such a huge accomplishment. He has been good about training as much as he can during the nights and on weekends, but he has still been gone quite a bit. It has been kind of hard on me, just getting used to these babies and the other kids. Being a mom is exhausting and you can't explain it to anyone, they just have to experience it for themselves to get it. Needless to say, i am excited for him to do this race and i know he will do awesome, and i am also excited for him to be done with racing season. :)

I have told myself that once Russ is done with racing, then i need to get serious about getting in shape and eating healthier, i figure if my babies are sleeping through the night i don't have an excuse any more. (i am getting tired of not having anything to wear and my sick nasty muffin top.)

OH and i am getting excited for fall weather, and fall fashion, so much better.

here are some random pics. enjoy

my boys, Harvey looks miserable, but he really wasn't crying until i took the pic. 

All 4 of my kids in our bed (in the morning of course) no one is allowed to sleep in here but Me and Russ

Best friends

they LOVE 4 wheeling at the cabin

no words

This saturday we were in utah county running some errands so we stopped at our old stomping ground BYU and had some ice-cream. oh the memories. Love that guy, our 7yr anniversary is coming up, and we actually met 10 years ago. 

my new world

being a mom of 2 newborns, a 2 year old little boy, and a 4 year old who is going on 18, has been an adjustment. like most moms, my days and nights are pretty much completely dedicated to the well being of my children. Now they have always been, but with 2 new borns around things are pretty crazy and i can barely come up for air unless someone else is around to help.


The nights have gotten better, Harvey is sleeping longer but i guess, when i say better i am only getting up 1-2 times a night instead of 3 -4.

During the day i am in  survival mode, my 2 older ones have gotten more mischievous and more determined to get away with whatever they can because mommy is tending to babies needs. I am sure it's because i don't give them much attention, unless you consider yelling at them attention. :(  i feel terrible about it, but the lack of sleep makes me an impatient crazy person. 


anyway i am at my moms a lot and Halle actually is a really good helper, she is amazing with babies. she knows exactly how to hold them and understands their weight and is just really good. i don't think i got her by mistake she truly is made to be a mommy. Miller is sweet, like usual. he is just a 2 year old so ya know.

But i can't complain too much, my kids love me, i love them and we are healthy. life is good, i can't wait to find our more about my new babies personalities. Harvey is super smiley and coos and gurgles at me all day, he has blue eyes and is going to be blonde. Pepper, is super chill and smiles sometimes. she sleeps like a champ during the night and i think she will have brown eyes and brown hair.

Anyway, my life with twins has been pretty crazy but doable and i need to go to bed!

Photo's !!!

Katie Moss from Peekaboophotos is amazing. Here is just more proof of her skills.

Their Story

May 16, 2012 I had my Twins. It still shocks me when i think I have twins. So on wednesday morning russ and i got to sleep in, since my two other babes stayed with my parents the night before. I couldn't eat anything because of the surgery, but somehow i wasn't hungry, maybe it was the nerves. We got to the hospital around 10:30am. They checked me in and got me hooked up to the baby monitors and got me ready for surgery. They did one last ultrasound just to make sure baby A hadn't flipped. He hadn't, their heads were still up and right next to each other, all the nurses thought it was so cute, and so did i. Then i was on to surgery. They actually had to bump me behind 2 other girls because their deliveries were marked higher stress. the nurse said, at least your twins aren't under stress and we can wait a little longer to get them here. i was comforted, i wasn't in that big of a hurry anyway.

It didn't take long before i was laying on the cold operating table getting my spinal block. the feeling was similar to an epidural, but the affects were complete numbness. i couldn't feel anything, which i am grateful for, but it was a pretty crazy feeling as well. i didn't like it, i was laying there and mentally had to go to my happy place. the best way to describe how i felt was claustrophobic. Russ didn't want to watch the surgery so he was right by my head holding my hand. He got more brave when they were pulling my baby boy out. He stood up to watch. i could get a glimpse of what was happening in the reflection of the light right above me. The doc told me they had to cut me a little more since baby boy was bigger then they had anticipated. The anesthesiologist said, "i just witnessed 2 c-sections and both of those babies were smaller then this one and they only had 1 inside of them." they finally got him out at 1:22 and i didn't here him cry right away but probably 30 seconds later. i wasn't very emotional because i was having to seriously focus on not losing it. russ said he was all limbs and really long. russ got to go over and see him while  they started on my baby girl. when russ came back i asked russ if she looked as big as he did, and he said no. they got her out at 1:24. she started crying right away and sounded like i had just given birth to a cat. her cry was so cute, but it sounded like a kitten meowing.

I just had to lay there staring at the sheet and keeping myself sane by breathing in and out. My nurse was amazing and came over and lifted up the sheet so i could see my babes, they other nurses were holding them right next to each other and my first impression was how much they looked like each other. It was crazy that they were finally here. they told me what each of them weighed, the boy 7lbs 3oz. & 21 1/2 inches long, the girl 5lbs 15oz, 19 3/4 inches long. i couldn't believe she was that much smaller then him. every ultra sound i had showed her being bigger. I got stitched back up and they wheeled my in to my recovery room holding one of them, sad i can't remember which one, i guess it doesn't matter. they didn't want me holding both of them because i was a little woozy.  they told me they were a little worried about the girl because she was small for her gestational age and would check her blood sugar to make sure she was eating enough. They also told me they were a little worried about my little boy having stuff still in his lungs because he was grunting a bunch, which we later realized it was just him, and that is what he does, he grunts all the time. :) They both were fine and they took me to my room.

I have a whole new respect for women who get c-sections, they are awful! labor hurts and is so painful when you are going through it, but once it is over, the pain is gone, and you are just a little sore. even with episiotomys they are nothing compared to the pain and recover time a c-section takes. i can't complain to much because i know i am so lucky that my babies were healthy and they both breast fed really well, and left the hospital with me.

Life since they were born has been good, sleepless but good. Halle has been a good helper, and Miller is so sweet with the babies. My mom has been an amazing help and russ and i have been doing our best to stay sane and happy on little to no sleep. we have been staying with my parents during the week and then coming home for the weekends. The babies are good babies. they are both grunters and just eat poop and sleep, just like they are supposed to.

Naming the babies, oh man don't get me started i HATE naming children and i don't ever want to have to do it again. it still makes me cringe thinking about agreeing on 2 names. anyway we deciding on Pepper Jane and Harvey James. We still might change it to Drew and Willis but i guess we will see.

Girl on the left boy on the right. Yes, his nostrils are crooked. :)

this was how i saw my babies for the first time

boy

girl, so close to 6lbs