11.19.2007

I need to apologize


So I need to apologize. First to my wonderful daughter Halle, whom I love more than I can say, and second to all of you who I tried to scare away from having babies. I shouldn't have talked to anyone before I was out of the "I'm crazy" stage. I think I made having a baby sound like the worst thing in the world, which I have come to realize couldn't be further from the truth.

Although it is the hardest thing I have ever done, it is also the most wonderful thing, besides my husband, that I have ever experienced. I just needed someone to tell me that after the first 2-3 weeks, you will feel more normal and you will figure things out, and understand your baby better. I also needed to realize that my life would never be the same, and that is ok. It took me a while to stop being selfish and realize that I love my baby and she loves me, and needs me.

Being a mom is truly wonderful and I can't get enough of my Halle! She has been smiling and cooing so much lately, it is so fun.

So sorry Halle for making you sound so bad, and sorry everyone for scaring you.

P.S. If you want to see all of the pictures from Halle's photo shoot go to this link
www.russpage.net/halle

9 comments:

Anie said...

HEY Lacey!! So glad to hear that you are adjusting to motherhood. Isn't it the BEST! It took me way more than 2 or 3 weeks to feel "normal". You're doing GREAT!! Halle is SOOOOOO cute! Can you believe that she is almost 2 months?!? Time flys by so fast and they change so quickly! Plus everything seems to get easier.... or maybe we just get better at it!! :)

SJ said...

thanks, but i'm still scared. i'm really happy to hear that you are happy, though. i can't wait to meet halle.

Annie said...

Ok So I was litereally crazy for like 5 months+. No one ever says that it is seriously the HARDEST thing you will ever do. Not the birthing part but the after part. The part where you have to take them home and spend every single moment trying to make them happy. It is DANG hard, you cannot even explain to someone how hard it will be, but you get through it and you come to just learn how to take care of them and then you get to just love them and kiss them and love them some more. Thank goodness that they sleep alot!! Lacey are a great MOM. I see how much you love Halle and that is what it is all about.

The Harpers said...

She is so precious!! I remember those first 6 weeks being exhausting. Somehow you forget all about that though when she looks and you and smiles, or when she reaches her arms out for you, or when she cries when you leave the room. Babies are completely consuming, but worth every second.

Brandon & Sara said...

Lacey, I don't know if you remember me but I am Russ's cousin, Aunt Jena's daughter. After Bub's 80th, my mom told me about all the family that has blogs and I had to peek! Halle is adorable! Congratulations! You can check out our blog at bshicks.blogspot.com

The Walkers said...

Oh Lacey, I'm so glad you are doing better. Halle is so cute, and I have no doubt that you are/will be a great mom!

heidikins said...

You are already a fantastic mom. Even though I don't have kids, I think the adjustment period is totally normal. (Can I say this with any authority? I don't know, if not, how 'bout I just agree with Annie?)

It was so great to see you and your fam this week!

xox

deannegalloway said...

No need to apologize, it's pretty much indescribable how hard being a mom is but after the first few months it gets much easier when you get into a routine. Keep up the good work. She's sure a cutie!
Deanne

katherine lance & grace said...

lace you are a great mother, and luckily we have a lifetime to learn and grow and become the mothers we want to be. too bad it doesn't happen instantly! i agree with your friend that said it seems to get easier and i think that we do get better as time goes on too! take care!