This is an excerpt from my Journal, i think it was worth sharing.
So the other day i was brushing my teeth or some random task and a thought came to me. You know when you have a thought just come to you and it makes you want to change your life right then and there, and then you spit out your toothpaste and go on with life and nothing changes? Well this time i really wanted to change.
My thought was about Halle, and how that little girl loves me so much, oh so much. She almost started crying when i told her i was going to dinner with friends and wouldn't be able to put her to bed. I thought about how soon she won't be the one vying for attention, I will. I will want her to play with me, talk to me, sing, dance with me and oh how sad it will make me that she will want nothing to do with me. What have i been thinking or doing? Just today she wanted me to come outside and play with her and what did i do? i told her no, i need to fold the laundry . . . oh my goodness Lacey, really??? the laundry, that was more important then seizing the opportunity to go play with my 3 year old daughter? And that was just one incident. There have been so many more and it is breaking my heart just thinking about it. I basically told my baby that i would rather do laundry than play go play with her, how heartbreaking. Yet, she still loves me more than anything. Oh how ashamed i am. I needs a serious adjustment in my priorities, laundry . . . honsetly.
I love my kiddies more that anything and will try to make our time together more fun, enchanting, magical, happy, lovely, imaginative and joyful. Tomorrow is a new day.